2005-07-09

Lin.

Oh my god, it was Lin. I saw her name and I couldn't believe it. I don't know if I've breathed since--

I couldn't make out much, but it was her voice. I know she said Alex' name but she was crying, but was it joy or sorrow or what and I tried to talk to her but then I just wanted to listen, remembering that someone had once told me I can't hear them talking if I'm talking on a cell phone. Hell, I don't know I'm stupid about phones, but it was her and I could hear her, but the signal was shit.

When it faded to static and I'd still not made out anything comprehensible save Alex' name, I started shouting, I love you, I love you, I love you into the phone. She's alive. Somehow, somewhere and maybe it's okay where she's at. Maybe it's just fucked up here and maybe she and Alex and Boka and Copper and everyone is okay out there and god can you imagine?

What if it is just here and they're coming and the world is going on as normal out there somewhere and... I've gotta tell Kat. Maybe she can reach her husband, now. Maybe it's